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So many disappeared
The people I saw with pink themes and infinite hands
They are those inside the walls
Locked away...
The zoo can't be compared
Nor a prison or a square
With a thousand roof tiles
Textures of a million different polygons
Visions in vertigo will be seen only 27 times
Each captured for you and me
My eyes...
They came with a torch
Only to further blurr my heaven
The last place I had to go
The feelings of circles spinning everywhere
Pink and red
Will never leave their side
Their upperhand to implode my mind
Gives the head start to an inward focus
Of what is known only to them
Once inside the walls for always and always
Never to escape
Grasping and groping the painful tender spots
Held close within an endless mind

Movie

A Scanner Darkly is a very good movie.

The battle

The regret I feel is going to be multiplied by two. I understand that the best way to get through this rough patch caused by my own doing will be best to ride it out alone. The fact that things will get worse before they get better is true. This notion comforts me somewhat.

Those that rob the grave

Rob it and rob it good.

I began with the pupils, flew to shame, and jumped to a peaceful ease

I discovered that I can jump from place to place without causing myself brain damage from things that I never needed. Letting myself loose from bar monsters and loopy larrys was the best thing to ever happen to me. I am now free from all the shit. I now must face the consequences which is easy to fathom. Ive realized my true character. I only know a few people that can put up with me and my shananagans and those people are my true friends/family. My plan is to be less erratic but only less to the point that Im not setting myself up for failure and or going on a stabbing rampage.